The stars drop silently
While our laughter screams through stale air
My neighbors have no right to complain
Why would people complain anyway
I deserve to be happy
I don’t understand
How we had seperate terrible evenings
But nights together so perfect
We refused to let them end.
I told you how you hurt me
I explained that my heart used to be whole
and you shattered it into a million stars.
I described the pieces as stars because
they were once beautiful
and are now burning away
leaving just darkness.
I shared my need to cut off my skin
hoping it would allow my heart to evaporate
and I wouldn’t be stuck
with a melted puddle in my ribcage.
We talked about pain for hours
and I had never felt so safe.
What is it about your hair
in a side pony
and a bang on the right
twisted with the arm of your glasses
that makes me forget the world?
Intoxicating my blood stream
while you intoxicate my mind
is just a recipe for disaster.
I forgot how to filter and for once
let shields down I didn’t know were there.
I knew you’d be scared of my insides
There’s a reason guts are only spilled
in horror movies.
I never meant to hurt you
that without you in my life
I wouldn’t have guts to spill
Just tears watering my face
hoping they’d grow into something beautiful
so you’d love me again.