Butterfly Diaries

These infinite efforts to ban you from my thoughts keep falling short

Earth’s twisted serendipity landed me in your arms then ripped us apart

When we’re this far, my nerves get sharp and my soul gets cold

Memories of us, haunting my consciousness as these tears drown my face

Scooting my body over, making space that I know you’ll never fill

Reaching for shadows, hugging pillows, dreaming of your touch

Endlessly trapped in this darkness, longing for my Sunshine

Wishing on every star, dandelion, and eyelash for your warmth once more

The absence of your lips on mine is the only thought under this sky

Torturing myself with the constant recall of your effervescent laughter

This patch work quilt of my thoughts won’t hush or comfort

This twisted idea of an ephemeral infinity leaves me speechless again

Now that my pen dies and my eyes droop I regrettably bid farewell

As the sun rises, you’ll hear from me but tonight this must end

Tags: love, Poem, poetry, Writing
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*I know, I know, this is not Chameleon Circuit lyrics…but I needed to post it. I wrote this for a school poetry project and kinda like it. What do you think?*

Reunite

Swirling through my head

are the thoughts of him

Probably more now

then when I saw him

I keep picturing

his so loving arms

Reaching out for me

when reuniting

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Tags: love, matt, memories, Poem, poetry, reunite, sad, Writing
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This week I am going to be posting lyrics for the new Chameleon Circuit album, Still Got Legs. If you do not know the band, they play “Trock” also known as Time Lord Rock. (Meaning songs about Doctor Who) Check them out and buy their album here!

http://dftba.com/product/xr/Still-Got-Legs-Pre-Order-Ships-July-12

DFTBA

Kiss The Girl

Some people think the perfect fantasy is the girl next door
But my dream girl has got the keys to my heart and home
I’d never dream that in a million years she’d settle for me

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Tags: awesome, Chameleon, charlie, charlieissocoollike, Circuit, craig, DFTBA, Doctor, doctor who, Dr, kiss the girl, Lord, love, lyrics, mcdonnell, monkeys, nerdfighter, sofie, sophie, still got legs, Time, Trock, Who
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This week I am going to be posting lyrics for the new Chameleon Circuit album, Still Got Legs. If you do not know the band, they play “Trock” also known as Time Lord Rock. (Meaning songs about Doctor Who) Check them out and buy their album here!

http://dftba.com/product/xr/Still-Got-Legs-Pre-Order-Ships-July-12

DFTBA

Travelling Man

Traveling man

Such secrets to be told

Alien man

Running from the days of old

Out of his world

With nothing left to lose

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Tags: awesome, Chameleon, charlie, charlieissocoollike, Circuit, dalek, DFTBA, Doctor, doctor who, Dr, live, Lord, love, lyrics, mcdonnell, nerdfighter, still got legs, tardis, travelling man, Trock, Who
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Zero seconds:

My hands scrape down the rocks as my body slides into the water

Feet first I fall slowly into the refreshing body of wetness.

Two seconds:

My head is submerged as I keep my mouth closed holding in air

My hair flows away from my head making me a medusa lookalike.

Four seconds:

My eyes start to slightly burn but I keep them open and stare

I stare at the bubbles from my dip, floating to the surface.

Six seconds:

My legs spread apart and make motions like a frog and move me down

My arms move instinctively like an airplane, to push down further.

Eight seconds:

I moved down and am still ok on air, I listen to the complete silence

The silence is unbearable so I think. I think of him.

Ten seconds:

I think of his smile and his hair, along with the way he held my hand

I remember catching lizards and singing in the hot tub.

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Tags: drown, life, live, love, moral, Poem, poetry, sad, saved, Writing
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“I love you.” I said to him as they wheeled him out of the hospital room.

“I love you too. So much.”

I was really distraught about this whole situation. We were only in high school and I was going to die.  See, I have had kidney problems since I was 5 or 6, and been on the wait list for a new one. Well now, 10 years later, I desperately needed one. When I told my boyfriend of 3 years I was going to die, he was shocked and wanted to do anything he could do.  After two weeks he is in the hospital with me, and currently going in for a kidney check. They have to make sure everything is working right and prepare for the transplant.

According to the doctor, my kidney type was rare and it was going to be difficult to find a donor that matched me. I guess my boyfriend and I were a perfect match. Haha. Ah,it’s good to laugh. I was so off ease with this whole thing. Humans are born with an extra kidney, but it is still major surgery and there can be so many complications. I could die either way, but now someone I deeply care about could too. Being wheeled into the operating room I kind of realized how big a deal this is. He was already put under and I wished I could wake him up. I wanted to ask him for the 80th time today, if he was ok with this, and if he was sure. I knew I was wasn’t.

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Tags: hospital, kidney, love, sad, short, story, teen, transplant
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